It's very hard to believe that I haven't posted a thing in 3 years. In that time, part of my non blogging was my inability to navigate the change that was trying to take place with the site. For quite a few months I just couldn't get in to post a thing. When that happened I succumbed to putting it aside. Over time it became but a passing memory? So why the change now? Because change has to start somewhere and it can't start until I take that first step to change. Isn't this how it can be with our walk if we aren't careful; whether or not we are on course or not? At what point do we notice that we started out 1° off track and have now become almost 90° from where we started and are heading in a completely different direction. Maybe it's not that bad for you or others but if you're off course say 10°, even a 1° miscalculation can put you hundreds of miles off course if you're not diligent to stop and take notice of where you are! This is where I've found myself at many points over the past few years and the hardest part was knowing that I was off and had to change direction. (Prov 4:26) At times I was truly unable to do so. A lot has happened over the course of three years. I won't attempt to try and put in all the details but I'll attempt to put together some semblance of reasoning that may help someone, somewhere out of a rut that they're in and hopefully it'll be a helping hand, fore we all need a little help.
The Lord, has allowed me to experience things that I hope to not have to experience again. (James 1:12) Even though I should be counting it as joy fore this is where I grow, and where my faith hits the pavement and is really tested; I'm so very humbled and happy to have been through the worse of it all. There are skeptics who believe that if we go through anything negative or hard in life and we Christains say, "the Lord allowed", then He must be a sadistic, mean spirited and evil god. To understand the Christian faith, is to have to acknowledge that 1) we are created by an intelligent, loving God. 2) Because He loved us and knew that we would be flawed, He still created us with FREE WILL! We were created, with an innate desire to search him out. A sort of built in gps. That little inate part, is what drives all humans to search for something more. Everyone is searching; wether it's Buddah, or Hinduism, or nothing at all, they are still searching for the answer. Even Hawking is still searching, and though people worship every thought that comes out of him, he can't even be sure that what he's searching for is absolutely true and accurate. It's all still a theory! The first time he started searching out the black hole it was to prove that on the other side would be proof that God or an intelligent design was at work and several years later the theory changed to say that if you can prove the Big Bang or beginning of civilization or the other side of the black hole that it will prove that God doesn't exist. I'm not here to say Mr. Hawking is wrong. I'm not against scientist who are out everyday trying to prove their theories right for the betterment of mankind. I'm just trying to explain my faith. It's not blind, and it's not something that was passed on from my parents without careful consideration. I wouldn't want my God in any other way. I wouldn't want to be made to worship him without it being my choice. And if you truly seek it out and research it, you'll see that sin corrupted the most perfect place on the planet; Eden. Sin was there from the beginning and over time it has corrupted man, and the earth, because man is greedy and selfish and in general takes away from the earth and society and only a small percentage care enough to replenish and help out.
Following God isn't as easy as people think it is. I don't think devotion to any one particular religion is truly easy. If your sole purpose is for inner peace and belief in something more than yourself, you will be presented with many obstacles along the way that will make you stumble. I have a good friend who is now a Buddhist. I love him to death, but he's no more at peace now than he was several years ago when he first started practicing. He's more synical that ever before. Some people say it's because he's not really buddahist. I say, NAY! From a worldly view, he won't be able to have peace until he gives up what's eating him and only he knows what that is. From a Christian point of view I say he has an inner struggle with sin. To me sin is anything that takes your focus off God. Anything that says "do me first, you always have time to commune with Him later." The thing is, in doing so we get 1° off here and there till we get to the point where we don't even acknowledge him when things are going real bad. Some Christians that I know will actually say, "then if you ever get that way, then you must have to question whether or not you were truly saved." To those people who feel they should say those words to Christians who are struggling, then I can throw back at them that they should reevaluate their walk as well. We are flawed humans who struggle with things of varying degrees from time to time and sometimes those struggles can be overwhelming. Sometimes our walk can be weak and a trial can come along and totally derail us till we get to the point where we can look past the trees and see the forest! The one constant in it all is that the Father is always there waiting for us to reach out and take his hand if and when we are ready and willing to do so.
The Lord, has allowed me to experience things that I hope to not have to experience again. (James 1:12) Even though I should be counting it as joy fore this is where I grow, and where my faith hits the pavement and is really tested; I'm so very humbled and happy to have been through the worse of it all. There are skeptics who believe that if we go through anything negative or hard in life and we Christains say, "the Lord allowed", then He must be a sadistic, mean spirited and evil god. To understand the Christian faith, is to have to acknowledge that 1) we are created by an intelligent, loving God. 2) Because He loved us and knew that we would be flawed, He still created us with FREE WILL! We were created, with an innate desire to search him out. A sort of built in gps. That little inate part, is what drives all humans to search for something more. Everyone is searching; wether it's Buddah, or Hinduism, or nothing at all, they are still searching for the answer. Even Hawking is still searching, and though people worship every thought that comes out of him, he can't even be sure that what he's searching for is absolutely true and accurate. It's all still a theory! The first time he started searching out the black hole it was to prove that on the other side would be proof that God or an intelligent design was at work and several years later the theory changed to say that if you can prove the Big Bang or beginning of civilization or the other side of the black hole that it will prove that God doesn't exist. I'm not here to say Mr. Hawking is wrong. I'm not against scientist who are out everyday trying to prove their theories right for the betterment of mankind. I'm just trying to explain my faith. It's not blind, and it's not something that was passed on from my parents without careful consideration. I wouldn't want my God in any other way. I wouldn't want to be made to worship him without it being my choice. And if you truly seek it out and research it, you'll see that sin corrupted the most perfect place on the planet; Eden. Sin was there from the beginning and over time it has corrupted man, and the earth, because man is greedy and selfish and in general takes away from the earth and society and only a small percentage care enough to replenish and help out.
Following God isn't as easy as people think it is. I don't think devotion to any one particular religion is truly easy. If your sole purpose is for inner peace and belief in something more than yourself, you will be presented with many obstacles along the way that will make you stumble. I have a good friend who is now a Buddhist. I love him to death, but he's no more at peace now than he was several years ago when he first started practicing. He's more synical that ever before. Some people say it's because he's not really buddahist. I say, NAY! From a worldly view, he won't be able to have peace until he gives up what's eating him and only he knows what that is. From a Christian point of view I say he has an inner struggle with sin. To me sin is anything that takes your focus off God. Anything that says "do me first, you always have time to commune with Him later." The thing is, in doing so we get 1° off here and there till we get to the point where we don't even acknowledge him when things are going real bad. Some Christians that I know will actually say, "then if you ever get that way, then you must have to question whether or not you were truly saved." To those people who feel they should say those words to Christians who are struggling, then I can throw back at them that they should reevaluate their walk as well. We are flawed humans who struggle with things of varying degrees from time to time and sometimes those struggles can be overwhelming. Sometimes our walk can be weak and a trial can come along and totally derail us till we get to the point where we can look past the trees and see the forest! The one constant in it all is that the Father is always there waiting for us to reach out and take his hand if and when we are ready and willing to do so.
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